"Nothing's wrong with my phone. I just didn't want to pick it up."
I was appalled; I snapped off the TV, slammed shut my laptop, went into my room adn locked the door behind me. I took what he said very personally. I waited for him in the living room, called him using practically everyone's hp at home. And this is the B.S. I get from him. I thought he got kidnapped or fell into a ditch OK!
I felt SO ANGRY that he's so non-chalant about MY feelings, I sat on my floor and cried. He just ruined my entire weekend altho it was only friday. Then after a while I thought, he doesn't even give a shit about us/ me, why should I cry? So I decided to listen to music to relax myself. But when I was looking for a CD, he knocked on my door, saying he wants to talk to me.
Then he told me his "reason". He said my mum said something that made him so mad, he SWORE NOT to use the phone the whole day. He just told me not to worry, not to worry and left me to cry again. I cried not because they quarrelled, but because of his attitude.
How can a person stay angry with his entire family for a fucking whole day? His mind is really twisted. And what's this ? A bloody apology arh?
The moment he mentioned "mummy sid something" I knew immediately what the issue was about. NOTHING ELSE could make the both of them "angry" like so. It was the Siao Char Bo who's always calling him. For sure.
He's fully aware that my mum really dislike the way he talks to her, and yet he continues to answer her calls.
This is not about Cheating (YET). This is about FLIRTING, you shallow-minded asshole!
Again, how the fucking hell can you get so angry with ur wife when U are in the FUCKING wrong????? MEN!!!
For the whole day, my mum didn't complain to me about you or show any signs of distress. I really had no idea. She didn't want to bother me with any more problems, and yet you managed to quadriple my stress level in a mere few hours. Idiot.
The next day, which is Saturday, I didn't tell my mum I cried, and I didn't want to give him a piece of my mind. When he said he wants to take us out (like nothing happened), my mum didn't want to go out with him. So my bro and I spent half a day with him. We went to Changi Village for lunch and then to the boardwalk. ALL the time, I wanted SO MUCH to tell him off on his irresponsible behaviour!But I didn't dare. It's always the case.
But then on the way home, while driving along PIE, he suddenly told my brother "Your'er a slow developer." MY GOD. Then he proceeded to critisize his results, learning attitude etc... So I tried to defend my brother sometimes with an equally rude tone, even tho my bro could hardly give a damn about his nagging. Soon, I WAS REALLY ON THE VERGE of telling him;
"Stop picking on HIM! Your're not any better yourself!"
I even wanted to reason with him my mum's reaction yesterday morning. Among my many other thoughts, one went like this;
"How can you blame her for saying such things that you deem stupid?! You imagine la! If she's always on the phone with someone you know in the office, eg. Uncle R, and she as YOUR wife, giggles and whispers and talks in a corner with a smile, HOW WUD YOU FEEL?! And worse still, the more you tell her to stop it, the more she does it. You think about it LA!"
So simple a theory, he can't get it in his head. Really, I can't see why he should or could get into an anger of that extent...
And a few times during the car journey, I felt my head under so much intense pressure that it felt like it'll explode. Like REALLY BLOW UP or something. It's not humanly possible but it suer felt that way. That's because I was struggling very hard to tell him, but there was this force field blocking my voicebox. I couldn't speak up!!! We travel from PIE to BKE to KJE and at various points, I just wanting to spill my guts out... but I can't. Nearing to final stretch of our journey home, I even tried to count backwards from 5, and told myself, "must say le!"
In the end I never got it out. He think's it's over, but I'll probably remember it for a long long time.
