I'm genuinely confused.
Who started all this? I'm gonna be very honest in this post. I don't care who sees it anymore.
Essentially I'm confused by Tiff after hearing her analysis on Amanda. It's not that I wanna put the blame on Tang Miao. Her analysis really made things more complicated for me. I mean it's like HUH? why become lydat? And she said things about Tang Miao, then she tells me that actually Tang Miao is OK with her, that they're still on talking terms. What's that mean? It's so confusing... It's like saying sometimes, Ew she "motivates" me, and then Erm I think we're cool with each other. Hahaha.. zzz... (The heat must have baked and mixed everything that was said today.) Then I wanted to tell tiff haven't you thot that she was just afraid that more people would "take sides"with Wanyi so she con'ts to be friendly meh? But I thot the better of it. Anyway, tiff will see this sooner or later, so... Btw I dun side wanyi- just that we had a common issue against them when all this started.
The concept that people can "hate" each other til a state like now, is already puzzling enough for me. I think I'm a simple person. I see things simply as the way they are and don't wish to think too deep about things becoz they might upset me. Sounds like I'm someonewho avoids the truth or maybe I'm also an insecure person in some sense? Like I said, I keep things simple; Like means like, don't like means don't like; What I write or say is what I mean. Like for eg, if I don't like the person alot, I will show it; if I don't like the person sometimes, I won't make bad remarks at all about her personality i.e. his dressing, his accent, his looks wadeva. If I like that person, I don't say anything bad about him/her. Ai yo I also dunnoe wad I'm saying. I'm still feeling very "whoozy" becoz I've been sitting here trying to get my words out since I got back home.
And I'm unsure of how I should see or feel about them now. Amanda came as a shock. Tang Miao shocked us too. What or who made her detest working with us at all? Cannot be just Wanyi wad. since Tiff says she's OK with her, then must be ME la. because I was rude when they were presenting arh? Then tiff and wanyi also made 'faces' and grumbled what. Then again I know why Tang Miao would hate me for that- because she'd never expect me to do that. And then like I predicted, the 2 of them (wanyi and tang miao) had the SAME feeling about each other. thats why they dislike each other lor! "Like-poles" repel each other mah. I wanna call her leh! To straighten things out, but wads there to straighten out huh? Oh ya, I wanna ask her who led to "separation" shit. hehe, confirm tiff's analysis...... She said before, she's big on bearing grudges but she ain't that big on "forgiveness". SO I probably wun call her coz I'm afraid of wad she'll say about me when I ask her what's the problem between us.
