"When life gives you lemons, you throw back durians."

Friday, January 20, 2006

Coming to Naught

I'm genuinely confused.

Who started all this? I'm gonna be very honest in this post. I don't care who sees it anymore.

Essentially I'm confused by Tiff after hearing her analysis on Amanda. It's not that I wanna put the blame on Tang Miao. Her analysis really made things more complicated for me. I mean it's like HUH? why become lydat? And she said things about Tang Miao, then she tells me that actually Tang Miao is OK with her, that they're still on talking terms. What's that mean? It's so confusing... It's like saying sometimes, Ew she "motivates" me, and then Erm I think we're cool with each other. Hahaha.. zzz... (The heat must have baked and mixed everything that was said today.) Then I wanted to tell tiff haven't you thot that she was just afraid that more people would "take sides"with Wanyi so she con'ts to be friendly meh? But I thot the better of it. Anyway, tiff will see this sooner or later, so... Btw I dun side wanyi- just that we had a common issue against them when all this started.

The concept that people can "hate" each other til a state like now, is already puzzling enough for me. I think I'm a simple person. I see things simply as the way they are and don't wish to think too deep about things becoz they might upset me. Sounds like I'm someonewho avoids the truth or maybe I'm also an insecure person in some sense? Like I said, I keep things simple; Like means like, don't like means don't like; What I write or say is what I mean. Like for eg, if I don't like the person alot, I will show it; if I don't like the person sometimes, I won't make bad remarks at all about her personality i.e. his dressing, his accent, his looks wadeva. If I like that person, I don't say anything bad about him/her. Ai yo I also dunnoe wad I'm saying. I'm still feeling very "whoozy" becoz I've been sitting here trying to get my words out since I got back home.

And I'm unsure of how I should see or feel about them now. Amanda came as a shock. Tang Miao shocked us too. What or who made her detest working with us at all? Cannot be just Wanyi wad. since Tiff says she's OK with her, then must be ME la. because I was rude when they were presenting arh? Then tiff and wanyi also made 'faces' and grumbled what. Then again I know why Tang Miao would hate me for that- because she'd never expect me to do that. And then like I predicted, the 2 of them (wanyi and tang miao) had the SAME feeling about each other. thats why they dislike each other lor! "Like-poles" repel each other mah. I wanna call her leh! To straighten things out, but wads there to straighten out huh? Oh ya, I wanna ask her who led to "separation" shit. hehe, confirm tiff's analysis...... She said before, she's big on bearing grudges but she ain't that big on "forgiveness". SO I probably wun call her coz I'm afraid of wad she'll say about me when I ask her what's the problem between us.

Monday, January 16, 2006

The blood-sucking duo

The more I think about it, the madder I am about myself. Just approximately 3 hours ago, I was presented with an opportunity to blast the daylights out of Tang Miao and Amanda. Yup, that's the duo I've been foolishly giving unprecedented coverage to in my few recently bloggings.

It was MOB lesson and Tiffany brought the completed mob report to class for submission. This report was "written by" our group called BOSS. Now, boss included the 3 of us and the 2 of them. As our previous collarboration turned out disastrous because Wanyi and I did not chip in at all (well, our contributions were negligible), I promised the duo that we'd make it up for it in the MOB project. So that was settled.

Then it was time to do the mob report. When I told the duo what we were gonna write on and the articles the 3 of us have found, they were like "mmh, ok ok." Then three days later, the submission dateline, which is TODAY, arrived!

TA DA~!

No points for guessing what happen!!! They did their own report ON THE SLY AGAIN!!!emphasis is on "AGAIN"!!! To hell with their freakish stupid childish little mind games. This is how I found out.

After I filed the report into a folder, I passed the report to them to write their admin numbers. I let Amanda go first. But the freakish little weird thing she did was hover her pen over the blank and with a wide mouth and even blanker look, she exchanged stupid little glances with her partner in crime (yes, I think I'll call them that). I coudn't stand those stupid little conniving actions they were displaying.

"What's the matter?! Write your admin no."

Then I understood their facial expressions.

"You all did on your own (again) issit??"

Then and Amanda let out a whimper, "Ya."

Fuck, just say so ma... Dun waste my time. *Tap tap tap* The seconds I use TRYING to get through to the both of you might very well just shorten my life by a large fraction, so hurry and fart/ talk/ cry wadeva- just get what you want out of your holes can? Guai arh, I dun wanna die early just by waiting for you to speak up...

Why am I mad at myself? Isn't it obvious that I've been too tolerating with their foolish games? Like I mentioned in abt 3 posts back, they shouldn't think they're that great just because they've to sacrifice their sleep for their team members. Of course, I'm sure, one of them doesn't really know the meaning of a TEAM or how it's spelt, but that's what a team is for! Furthermore, they kind of landed themselves in the sticky situation by always playing hide and seek with us and dissappearing off when I needed their help.

The main point is, since they already splintered off from us and did their own "pair" project, why thicken their skin and brave the shame to come over to us this morning for the group assesment?!

If the two of you got balls, then start a league of your own la! Do EVERYTHING on your own! If U can pull that off for the rest of the year, I MIGHT consider kowtowing to you... Just don't try to be "in our group" only whenever you want to. If not, bloody hell stop pulling Amanda off to do your shit work with you. You wanna splinter off, go ahead on your own. You shouldn't be such a control freak over other people's rights of socializing. I, for one, should clearly know about that.