Sunday, May 21, 2006

Close to panick

Quite sick of following the colour scheme and shades of blogger for my posts- if anybody realised i've been doing that.

Last night, I got hit with the reality that FIVE things are due this week leh... ok, just before I worte this, I thot 3-4. Den I flipped back thru my organiser, SHIT! There's HRM CA and FMA CA too! Sorry, but I'm really feeling the heat right now. I'm unprepared. On Friday, I wanted a break from the school week so I didn't anything. On saturday I went for peeling in the morning, had late lunch with my family. by the time I got back, I was so sleepy... Before I knew it, I had had to pack and leave for my popo's hse because she's making ba zhang and needed somebody to accompany her. So what did I do yesterday? Read up on the 1st chapter of HRM and did some FMA hw...

Then only last night, I "remembered" there was still PSCM part 1(friday), HRM CA (Tuesday), UCCD presentation(Tuesday), OMG! Another one: PTH CA (FRIDAY), FMA (THURSDAY)!!! I didn't realise this week got THREE CAs LEH!!! Now then I saw! =,( I wanna siao liao... I really saw JUST ONLY.... Siao liao siao liao... How to survive the week?

Sorry sorry, dun mean to make U stressed- shuping, limin etc, I really blur about CAs... really mi hu and hu tu le...

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

I'm getting more and more...

Irritable.

And impatient.

And Sensitive.

And Morbid. (Graphics images in this post. Viewer discretion is advised.)

I don't like people...

who fight to get their points across, when I wasn't even asking for his/her opinion. -I don't care who that maybe. So long as u "answer" without being asked... I'll be disgusted with u.

who ignore me when I'm answering their question! -Like duh! who LIKES that? But some peolpe just DO NOT have the basis courtesy to listen to someone finish their sentence. This is NOT about attention-deficiency ok. It's just plain rudeness la.

I getting more and more guai lan. It's very easy, knowing me. This just means 2 things. It's that time of the month OR the iminent exams are getting to me OR... BOTH. Serious case man.

Anyway... I've always wanted to say this: Hardcore criminals should be punished in the same way as what they did to their victims.

The most recent murder trial that's hit the newspapers is the S'porean who bashed his room mates to death in their sydney house. His capital punishment should be being killed the same way. ya noe, bashing his head in with a similar baseball bat until he's nearly dead, and then leaving to BLEED to death for the next 2 hours :) Read the write-up on the case and u'll understand my wrath too.

And serial- rapists? Well, if he was screwed back, he'd probably enjoy it! So obviously, castrate him. To a point he'll need some sort of a funnel to pee straight. I can picture, that is not even good enough for some rape victims. They'd probably want a string to tied to his "weapon of assailant" so it slowly dies off, dries up and drops off.

Slash and burn murderers. HAh.

Who else...

Ok, maybe I shud stop freaking my friends out. "Why is she suddenly SO GRUESOME?" Like I said, it's not "suddenly". I've always thot about this ever since like the donnoe wad murder. Way back then Huang Na's murder...

Like I once read that a man in another Asian country, pulled out a young girl's intestines thru her vagina, leaving only 5 cm left in her body by the time she was sent into the hospital. I never got to know whether she was saved anot or if the man was captured and convicted. This was MANY years back. But I still remember clearly coz it has always 'haunted' me.

Some years back, my mum told me: this man in Japan abducted another small girl and KEPT her in a room. He just kept her like an exotic animal, because she was extremely cute. She never got out for over a decade. When she was finally discovered by the man's mother, she'd turned into a freak... She refused to be rescued because the room was the only world she knew. When her menses started, the man simply left some pads in her room.

In China, where the most of the worst unreported cases in the world occur, an uncertified dentist extracted so many of a boy's milk teeth at one go despite his protests, the young boy died in a few days. - Also reported in straits times.

I mean after reading these, how can u not feel hatred for the criminals? For the dentist, ALL of his/her teeth shud also be extracted at one go. Let her dwell on painkillers. If he/she doesn't die, fine lor, make her a new set of teeth then.

Monday, May 15, 2006

No wonder I'm feeling empty

I've missed 2 shows of American Idol! But THE most important thing is dat Taylor made it to the last 4. Yup. Just dat it's really a waste not being able to watch and hear him perform.

And I've been a bad girl at least in my thots. To come str to the truth, I'm already starting to lose interest in TT training, even before it's even officially started! I dunnoe why, I feel some kind of uneasy pressure when wednesday approaches. Then now, I feel like joining mentoring. Key word: feel like. So scared I won't have wad it takes to finish what I start leh.

Projects giving me a little stress. Exams giving even more stress. In SB, it's like dat. Before they even teach you the 2nd lecture topicm they'd flash the exam time-table schedule in ur face once every week. The Mr. Krishna....

Wah Kao, who ask mi choose SP and SB - DBA -TOURISM SOMEMORE. *fainting soon*

As if I don't usually think alot, recently, after I tried out my mom's workplace, I've been thinking even more! Very perplexed about my future lor... What do I wanna be? What are my ambitions and aspirations? How much do I expect of my future salary? What will my first and last job going to BE?! Everything is a blur.

Becasue of this, I really look up to my dad. Primarily because of his line of work. I see it as a dying trade. People now, where got still want to do sales? Everyday 4/5 days per week go to the showroom, meet irrate customers, face unreasonable management...

I think my Dad's managers performance go against everything I'm being taught in MOB and HRM. Shucks lor. My mom's place oso SS. (Same Shit)

It started ever since I started work. I find my pay unsatisfactory and not worth the effort. I find the people at the workplace very shallow and mean. These are the excuses I give to my mum for not con't work. Like, somebody help me... Now it's just simple part time job, and I'm whining already... It's unimaginable how things'll turn out in my first real job.