Reached school yesterday at 1pm although TT gathering time was 4.30pm. Had lunch with her, showed her some videos of monday's and tuesday's games with RP and NP resp..
When she saw, Ee shu's and Cecilia n Xianping's videos, she was like (O_O). hehehehehe... Damn impactful. Then when she saw Ah si's videos, she said...
"Really like watching Rongxiang (the tawainese TV host) playing leh..."
AAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Then we talked about stuff and learnt many words of wisdom from her and Da Jie (her eldest sis la). That talk-n-listen session really kai jie le wo leh. *I must flush out the negative thots in me!*
OKay! Now for the NYP MATCH...
WAAAAAAHHHHH SEEEHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! The guys' match, WAS SOOOOOOOO HIONG ARHHHHHHHHH!!!! OH MA GAAAAAWD!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! ANd the BEST thing is... I RECORDED ALOT OF THE MATCHES!!!! ESPECIALLY EE SHU'S MATCH! It was the deciding match for the guys and the atmosphere really really really never-seen-before for me at least.... Everyone were so worked up and cheering and encouraging him all the way maaan... Never mind he didn't win the match, coz he put up sucha fight!!! Score was 2-3 and the last round was deuced- opponent won by such a close margin... Awwww maannnn, AWESOME AWESOME SHOW!
SO in the end, SPTT has secured silver medals for both teams. Thing is, Gold medal is now more possible for women's team compared to men's team.
:) It's ok! Hard fight until like, die also worth it:) Hahahahaha. For me, I've already got alot of gold medals! THEY ARE IN .mov FORMAT - ALL 43 OF THEM! LOL!
Hiphiphoooray to SPTT men's team!! WAN SUI!!
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
messed up
She's the first one i think of when i feel really awful - because i know she will listen, understand how i feel and talk sense into me to make me feel better.
She's the first one i think of when i'm having fun - because i know a hearty laugh will follow after i tell her all about it.
She's my happy pill.
Shups, yup! Dat's U!
Oi, don be pressurised or "feel helpless" after seeing this post hor. i DO NOT "expect ALOT from this relationship". ;) hahahaha! (Shups will get it)
Thanks for calling up straight after u received my message last night, even though u were feeling down yourself. Somehow whenever i hear your voice, no matter how down and low i feel, i always lighten up and smile. Never fails. I feel like recording ur voice and blasting the earphones in my head so i an wear a smile where ever i go.
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But last night after i went offline, there was still a huge boulder on my chest. I lied on my bed at 1.30am. Images and voices started to appear in my head. I just lied there and stared at the ceiling and then stared at Piggy.
I kept having flashbacks of what happened during table tennis leh. "why am i so affected by it huh? i dunnoe. i really dunnoe. it's really no big deal wad! could it be simply because i'm too petty? If i were in their shoes, how would i have felt or handle it? tolong, i better stop being so shallow lor. i already said i'm ok, and i meant what i said, so i shud stop harping over it! if i keep holding on to such things how the hell can i fully support the team lydat?..." etc etc
Then when i ask these questions about my attitude, another set of questions will automatically appear. "Why can't they just tell me arh? why couldn't he just TELL me? why couldn't she JUST TELL me? this kind of things need to paiseh wan meh? i'm fully aware of the reasons. i'm no good means i'm no good lor. and what do u take me for now? really, wad do u take me for now? sooner or later i will have to find out, why not just be straight to the point?! i really could have taken it well. why do they have make the situation so awkward for themselves, and in the end make ME awkward when i needn't feel that way?"
I donnoe what the hell is wrong with me. So i just thought and thought and thought about these over and over.. until about a quarter past 2, i thought, Cry. Must make myself cry. So i sat up, got ready my tissue box and tried.
After sitting there for what felt like 30mins, i couldn't do it! Seems like everytime i force myself to think of something unhappy so the tears can flow, 1 or 2 happy images will counter the unhappy stuff! Man, am i mixed up or am i mixed up!?
In the end, i donnoe how i fell asleep. i totally forgot. next moment i opened my eyes (it was already bright) i thot, "EH!? how come alarm clock haven't ring!?".... then rmbed it was wednesday... tried to go back to sleep but the questions are bbbaaaaaaaaaaaaacckk~... Bloody hell. Won't let me off lor. So yup, i'm up since 7.30am and i'm still feeling fresh.
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I wanna hammer myself liao! SHUPS! Bring a hammer for me on thursday. Hammer me while we're running round the track. Knock some sense into my head.
-9.33am-
Went thru all my photo albums in the com. Now, I really feel better.
-10.34am-
She's the first one i think of when i'm having fun - because i know a hearty laugh will follow after i tell her all about it.
She's my happy pill.
Shups, yup! Dat's U!
Oi, don be pressurised or "feel helpless" after seeing this post hor. i DO NOT "expect ALOT from this relationship". ;) hahahaha! (Shups will get it)
Thanks for calling up straight after u received my message last night, even though u were feeling down yourself. Somehow whenever i hear your voice, no matter how down and low i feel, i always lighten up and smile. Never fails. I feel like recording ur voice and blasting the earphones in my head so i an wear a smile where ever i go.
.
.
.
.
But last night after i went offline, there was still a huge boulder on my chest. I lied on my bed at 1.30am. Images and voices started to appear in my head. I just lied there and stared at the ceiling and then stared at Piggy.
I kept having flashbacks of what happened during table tennis leh. "why am i so affected by it huh? i dunnoe. i really dunnoe. it's really no big deal wad! could it be simply because i'm too petty? If i were in their shoes, how would i have felt or handle it? tolong, i better stop being so shallow lor. i already said i'm ok, and i meant what i said, so i shud stop harping over it! if i keep holding on to such things how the hell can i fully support the team lydat?..." etc etc
Then when i ask these questions about my attitude, another set of questions will automatically appear. "Why can't they just tell me arh? why couldn't he just TELL me? why couldn't she JUST TELL me? this kind of things need to paiseh wan meh? i'm fully aware of the reasons. i'm no good means i'm no good lor. and what do u take me for now? really, wad do u take me for now? sooner or later i will have to find out, why not just be straight to the point?! i really could have taken it well. why do they have make the situation so awkward for themselves, and in the end make ME awkward when i needn't feel that way?"
I donnoe what the hell is wrong with me. So i just thought and thought and thought about these over and over.. until about a quarter past 2, i thought, Cry. Must make myself cry. So i sat up, got ready my tissue box and tried.
After sitting there for what felt like 30mins, i couldn't do it! Seems like everytime i force myself to think of something unhappy so the tears can flow, 1 or 2 happy images will counter the unhappy stuff! Man, am i mixed up or am i mixed up!?
In the end, i donnoe how i fell asleep. i totally forgot. next moment i opened my eyes (it was already bright) i thot, "EH!? how come alarm clock haven't ring!?".... then rmbed it was wednesday... tried to go back to sleep but the questions are bbbaaaaaaaaaaaaacckk~... Bloody hell. Won't let me off lor. So yup, i'm up since 7.30am and i'm still feeling fresh.
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I wanna hammer myself liao! SHUPS! Bring a hammer for me on thursday. Hammer me while we're running round the track. Knock some sense into my head.
-9.33am-
Went thru all my photo albums in the com. Now, I really feel better.
-10.34am-
a little thank you note
thanks.thanks for letting me know.thanks for letting me know it this way.no one i've respected so much has eva done this for me before.i'm so thankful.thanks for putting things across in such a sensitive manner.i think i'll rmb ur kind act for the years to come:)
thanks for not being sacarstic.thanks for being so straightforward with me.i really appreciate it.thanks for giving me face infront of everybody.and for leaving me the dignity i deserve.thanks for being so nice to me - knowing that i always speak up for you!:)
thanks.thanks for letting me know.in such short notice.couldn't have came any sooner.thanks for not laughing and joking when i was in the dark.thanks.:)
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