It's abit late for this, but can't be helped becoz I was having exams nearly the whole week.
This year's valentine was EXCEPTIONALLY lonely for me. For one, it's the first time in many years that I didn't have school on valentine's day! See the importance of school!? Secondly, I was HOME ALONE literally the whole day. From the moment I woke up til 4 or 5 when my brother came home. But he left at 7 again for tuition.
The whole day that day was horrible. Never felt so alone before in my whole life. Was sitting in my room at my desk, revising and listening to Gold 90's Venetta Lopez show... thot I'd find some comfort there but noooo... Gardammit, valentine's messages and lovey stuff kept making it's way to my ears! Urgh. And this line, "It's ok if you're single!" bothers me the most. I didn't mind at all at first, but when they kept repeating it, it started to get on my nerves la.
At some point, it felt so lonely I wanted to cry. Quite silly right. Could have been a normal QUIET day, but nope, I had to tune in to the radio. I also thot, Man I could never move out from my parent's home. I won't be able to survive waking up alone for more than 2 consecuetive days. I'd probably become a highly depressed SINGLE person.
Then in the evening I suddenly had a little eureka kinda feeling- I could cook pasta for my bro and dad! SO I went down to NTUC to buy the stuff, preparing a sumptous spread that I was gonna cook for the first time on my own. I bought shitake mushroom, carbonara sauce, chicken sausages, pasta, tomatoes etc.
When I got home my bro had left for tuition. Hmm! all alone again. Luckily I had the pots and pans in the kitchen for company. Anyway, to cut to the chase, I spent nearly an hour cooking the half-course dinner. Then I couldn't open the sauce bottle lid and had to wait til my dad came home... at 8.30.
Then when everything was ready, he finished everything on his plate within 10 minutes! You wouldn't believe it until you see it happen, I know. I couldn't either. He said wanted to catch my brother at the school gate to fetch him home. He then left hurriedly at 8.40 and didn't reach home until 9.15.. leaving me all alone, sulking, dowsing myself in pity.
I was left alone so many times that day, I become a little numb to the pain of it... Anyway, they didn't complement or thank me to say the least... oh well.
